I was so absorbed with my academics stuff that I was not able to blog for the whole month of March. With that whole month, there were several times I was tempted to write something but I was too preoccupied with doing programming projects and papers that I can't think of something sensible to write. Instead of blogging, I just chose to spend my very few free time resting and preparing for other school loads that are needed to be accomplished.
Now that everything's done, I just felt so unfulfilled. For so many semesters, qpi has never been my issue not because I really excel in class but I really prioritize learning. It's pointless to get high grades if I didn't learn at all.
This semester, I took another perspective of studying and that is to be a genuine grade-conscious. I don't let school works past without my professors giving a just grade to stuff that I made or presented. But then, my first try is just so unhealthy...
I witnessed some of my classmates cheating and even those diligent and grade conscious conforming, for them not to be left behind. It really frustrates me seeing really smart people resorting to cheating because they did not review that much. I always tell my self, di bale nang mababa score ko at least alam kong deserving ako sa kung anong nakuha ko.
Another, lots of free loaders in the world appear when they needed you the most. Di ako sanay nang ganun. (Siguro kasi dati, ako yung ganun.hahaha) You'll do the dirty works and you are credited the same with them, or worse, they get a higher mark.. It is disappointing because you know that you are not dealing with dumb people but with lazy ones. Alam mong kaya nilang gawin yung part nila pero they chose not to. Mas matatanggap ko pang di nila magawa kasi di talaga nila kaya kaso hindi eh..
There was this instance in one of my subjects that we need to accomplish a project by group. The whole group was assigned to accomplish certain parts except for one person. I am just new working with them that's why I'm not that familiar with their work ethics. So one told me that the freeloader is known to be like that and they already gave up assigning works to him that will be left undone. Still, I chose to give him a chance. But in the end, he failed to accomplish his part (my groupmates were doubtful that even the work assigned to him, they already start doing it). So we reported him to our professor. We heard that he was given a chance to work on his own. But behold, he submitted the same project that our group did. That was a VERY desperate move. He even said that he'll made a BETTER VERSION of what we have done. hahaha. Can you consider a better version if your circuit did not even run??
Situations like this made the semester stressful and exhausting. Every time this happen, I always think of David, my ever smart and nice blockmate. Not because I like him or he inspired me but he is too used to doing lots of work in a group project but dare no to complain or any thing. He can work alone and work alone in a group. I just wonder if he just got numb or tired tapping people that he had told himself that all he can trust is his self.
I don't what them to get used to that kind of system--cheating and freeloading because they are smart people. It's just shameful that these people will graduate without actually knowing anything because of these practices..
Adding up to my frustration is those people who are grade-conscious but keep on comparing themselves to how others perform academically. They complain because they are not given just grades compared to others' grades. I was shocked that at some point this semester, I was like that.. Oh well.
I am not saying that I'll stop giving special attention to my academic performance but I'll try not to stress my self thinking about this stop. I am not losing hope that these people will change. No one can do these stuff. Not on my expense.
Happy Vacation everyone!!!
